` thank sanity it's over

I think know that if I speak my mind right now, I'm going to regret it. So, i'll just shut up and sulk the bullshit and wish it'll all just dissolve in the acid i'm churning inside me.

Anyway, it's amazing how people choose to respond only when it benefits them.

hah.

Bye bytches.

` late late late late

23 October 2008

Happy Birthday Kam!

:)

You're 19, fabulous and MIA.

Study hard and all the best alright?



**************

20 October 2008

MIA would be underrated in your situation.

=_=

Happy birthday you cow.

I know how to un-MIA you.

Invite you to one of our makan seshens or parties.

sigh.

You're sucha cow.
Let me rephrase that.
You're the only cow.


Thank you both for being, well, you.
See you guys around.
and yes, i'm sorry this is late as it is.

I'm not going to attempt to give a pain or lame ass excuse.
(i've been drowning is assignments!)
Yeah. The things the pangs of my conscience make me do.

Hope you guys have a blessed year being 19.
Next year you're gona ne twenteen without the teen.

ok bye.


Love much.

` i'll find a way

hallo. (in the retarded Cina apek way)
I think only Syin and Jo the hamster will get my drift,
which reminds me of the Sheep prank calling HKeat, offering massages and more.
=_=


It's (please insert entire profanity dictionary glossary here) five in the morning.
Yeah. Two nights in a row.


Even Gwen Stefani's Four in the morning song cannotmakeit.


This is what you get, M, for being you.


Give me three more days and i'll be all about the sect!
yeah right...


I've got class tomorrow morning at 9.30am.

If I have to wake up to wash up and bathe, it'll have to be 8am.

Three hours to sleep?


Predicament:
To sleep, or not to sleep.


Screw it.

Goodnight folks!

` i hate you but i love you

I spent the morning in LAN class. Three hours of that.
What? Do I hear you say "Saturday?" ...

Precisely my point. Sucha pain, ain't it?

The parents came pick me up after that.
Went for lunch, and mom went to her favourite shop. Lol.

Once in a while, we go out randomly, just the three of us.
I like it.

Yes. I'm selfish like that, sometimes.

Somethings don't change, do they?

...

haha.

I damn7stupid.




On the contrary,

some things do change.

Take the best example. Sampans. :)

1 afloat, 1 sunken, and 1 constantly trying to un-drown.

Lmao.

Despite the massive disparity, we're still holding up.

*lying down at the Farm, in the middle of the night*
*1 hand flies up* "LINEEEEE"
*2 hands fly up to be right by the first*


The simple act of love that drives you.

The things we used to do...

The things we still do...

The things we stopped doing...

You both know I banyak sayang you dua, kan? kan?

And, for never saying no. :)




haha. glad you guys enjoyed dinner. :)


oh oh oh. You people remember Sam (the horsey girl) from Brisbane?

I got this email from her (which some of you might've got)
and this part was like uber fascinating. :)

37.

How many pets do you have

let me see 2 horses, 3 cows, lots of chickens, 3 geese, and a dog...oh wait I forgot our dog passed away today...silly me:(

not the passed away part.
just the entire list of pets =_="

We know that the due date's in a week, and yet we're still like that. hahahahahaaaaa

` some hearts

Last weekend, there was this blood donation drive going on in my church. The PIHD (Parish Integral Human Development, i think) group organized it. On the way to my secluded and cleanest toilet around (or so we think so), I passed that room where they were having the blood donation drive. I saw my aunt in there so, naturally, I conveniently popped in to say hi. Then the dude in-charge was like "hi girl, you want to fill a form up too? *big smile that makes you feel uber guilty if you say no*". I was going to say yes, before this.

*flashback*

Last year, I was all excited that I was finally of age to contribute something else to society. Blood. In my head, I thought it was just going to be like when the doctor wants to extract blood from you, for blood tests, right? Cepat aje. Kelip mata then habis. So I was all prepped up for the thing. I had a few friends who were going for it too. Well, one die, all die together lah right? haha. Yes, I super mean. Plus, they say you get to rid the "dirty" blood in your system. haha. So, that was my first time actually being at an actual blood donation drive. I was quite excited. Silly me. That was also where I first saw a friend's bunch of friends who I deemed as pretty weird. I take that back. They turned out to be pretty decent people. Silly me, judging people by their outlook. Anyhoo, I had to fill this form in. I filled the entire thing then read the T&C. Suddenly I realized I didn't meet one of the requirements. I told myself this. They wouldn't know, even if I decided to go on with the blood donation, right? (I think that was my id at work - a theory Freud came up with). But this little thing said no. What if a catastrophe follows? Actually, it was more like "you wanna die or what?". Yeah. I was pretty chickened out. So I decided against it. So I watched the entire process of blood donation. Turned out, I was the most pale among em all by the end of it. haha. I think I would've rather not known, then I wouldn't have been that freaked out (maybe?). So yes. I have this thing against needles and blood. Even when I go visiting in the hospital, doctors tend to ask me if i'm alright and if it's me who needs treatment. Like yeah. Sigh. I super potong. But have you seen the freaking needle that they use to suck your blood ar? @#@%*&^%% so thick. *cries*

Now back to that blood donation drive at church. I told myself "Michelle, you can do this. Come on, everyone does it!?" *uncle still looking at me* Then I gave him my response. "Sorry uncle, I've got exams tomorrow". He kindly said alright and let me go.

Now that I think of it, I wonder if I said I had exams, as a defense mechanism, because deep down inside me, I am still very much afraid of it; or, was it really that I thought my exams were that important? I mean, I had exams the next day. I didn't just simply lie about that. But yeah. I think I said it out of my fear of it all.

My consolation? I spent four solid hours in Starbucks, sticking post-it notes all over their glass and I actually ot some stuff into my head for Psych. "The dehumanizing effect of a demeaning situation". :( yeah. Anyway, I will overcome this damned fear. One day, I will donate blood. One day. I'll let you know if the one day ever comes. :) hoho.


On a lighter note, the parents were out of town today so the sister and I cooked dinner for ourselves. :)

I made that! haha. I actually wanted to grab some random recipe off the net, but it started pouring pigs and cows. So, Rach and I decided to pick up one of mom's 2oo gazillion cook books to obtain some random recipe. heeee.

See mom, I told you I can cook, right? One more to add to the list of "i can cook... ", besides indo mee, tomyam mee, maggi mee, ibu mee, har mee, korean mee, cintan mee... *malu

:)

That's the visual provided by the recipe book, and the one in the bowl is mine, okay?

ma, we used fresh tomatoes.

*blech*

Can't imagine it. After all, tomatoes were one of my I-don't-likes. Then again, they required Basil! Which I so totally adore. Pesto spaghetti was our second choice, btw. Then again, mom makes such good Pesto, we'd kill ourselves if we even tried. =_=

The sister, on the other hand, has awesome cooking skills. *malu again*

She got this recipe online, for Rosemary Balsamic Chicken (which was really good, i'd say). My food palette is simply pleased, as long it surpasses the list of i-don't-likes. Chicken is on my I-like list. So yeah. I liked it alot. :)

For the two of us (cause Beatrice langsung tak layan the food), we had nuggets, Ceaser Salad, Rosemary Balsamic Chicken, yummy apple juice with apple cubes (haha) and (i-can't-remember-what-the-book-called-it) spaghetti. :) Those of you who know us well enough, Rach is sucha puny eater. Sigh. I think we cooked enough to feed an entire army.

Okay. That's all for now.

I know i've gotten all wordy, lately. I just feel very wordy nowadays. :) On a random note, I finally got all the album covers for 624 of all my 626 songs. Now they look so pretty in iTunes and my iPod. Yes, it had become an obsession to have album covers for em' songs.

:)

` blog roll!

When you're traumatized by multiple events in a day, what do you do?

*rewind*

1. The English Paper
2. That fat dude in a girls pants (+ his panty/undie-line)
You know those dancing pants, soft-material, super comfy things we wear, where you can fold the top down, comes in multiple colours? Yeah he wore that. It was black though. Oh and he carried this handbag. He was bouncing up and down yelling "taxi", while flailing his hands. I try not to discriminate but things like these just make you go ... =_=
3. The parking ticket.
4. Stealing (or borrowing but forgetting to return) a parking ticket
5. The rain which reduced my vision to approximately 1m parameter.
6. The non-hunger pangs.

Go for manicure. :)
Pricey? Worth the once in a while splurge!
Priceless? DIY.

It can be so therapeutic, I tell you.

things that make you go hmmmm...

` against all odds

I

Am
Back.

10 Reasons why I enjoyed this year's transition.

1. L came over to surprise me with our whole "card-full-of-issues" and my favourite, coffee.
2. People I forgot about (sorry) and lost contact with sent greetings. (?)
3. The friends who were overseas. Well, i've already told you what I needed to. haha.
4. Had a chance to have all the chocolate in the world at the chocolate shop, but decided otherwise.
5. Went to Topshop, could've got anything, but decided on nothing.
   (I think it was damn awesome. You may not think so, but i'm so proud of myself. I think, if I wanted anything, at all, on that day, Mom would've got it for me. If given the exact same circumstances last year, I would've bought over Topshop and what not. I would've bought things I wanted, and not needed. Shop at MPH and Popular, buying all those funky note books that I collect, cos they're just all that pretty, and never use them, cos they're too pretty to be written on. *wtf right, I know. I had this OCD issue with pretty notebooks. I think I have overcome my impulsiveness. :) One leap forward. At least i'm not regressing, right?)
   
6. I had my favourite cake in college (which Shaun used to ask Ms. D to prom with, btw ...)
7. Blacks decided to try it differently and go Thai (and BIG) portions.
8. It was a cupcake affair. (also, thanks Van and Aaron) People I haven't seen in ages suddenly popped up.
9. P.A.T.H.O.L.O.G.Y. ... *secretly curses.
   
10. There was only one thing I really wanted this year, and I got it. *grins*

haha. That dude was so nice.

So, I'm supposed to be studying when suddenly, I had this urge to blog. So here I am. Suddenly remembered SK's presentation last sem on the Law of Attraction. I think therefore I am. I think therefore I am. I think therefore I am. I can do this... *breathes. haha. I damn drama queen. And i'm really grumpy now, cos I feel like I need Starbucks just this badly, but i'm too lazy to drive there to get it. Actually, it's not that. I wanna go to Starbucks, prop my fat lazy butt there for the next two hours at least, without this laptop. Assuming that I don't meet anyone there, or get distracted with a shopping bargain that magically opens right next to Starbucks, I would get two hours of solid studying, at least. Yeah. That's the "ideal" situation la.


My comforter is just this tempting, and well, my laptop is full of this thing called music, which is calming and heavenly. Music is the only thing that cures my grumpiness. Chew asked, Michelle can get grumpy one ar? haha. You think? ... And btw, driving during Raya was like the best feeling, by far. I mean... Class at 8am, leave my house at 7.48am and I reach class before 8am? And daddy was driving all slow. Damn the jam.


Everyone should make this pact to take public transport. Less cars, public transport will be on time (hopefully), and then I won't jinx the weather to rain on me as and when I decide to take a bus home. Four times i've tried, it's rained every damned time! Back to public transport. If there were less cars, there'd be less jam, buses would be on-time, and everyone would be happy. Just buy more buses to satisfy the demand of the population. But people won't take buses if they had their vroom-vroom cars, would they?


Cos buses are like broken down old records that are trying to pick the speed up, revving their engines to the limit, but never reach the climax of the song.


Unless you take the freaking Konsortium bus that has been banned by the government.


Why? Cos the bus drivers think they own the roads, and all that. They drive like demons. Fast is one thing. Unstable is another. They drive those double deckers so quickly, you actually feel the bus swinging from left to right. I think i'm blessed that the two times I sat on the Konsortium, it didn't fall into some ravine or do a somersault. It'd be plain ugly, wouldn't it? Not funny la.


Once was when a group of us went to Penang. Was it? Or... I can't remember. But I remember nearly missing the bus with Laura, cos we were busy eating KFC and we had to run after that stupid bus at Pudu. The bus ticket said 4.30 and 4.25 the fella wanna leave. So not our fault. The second time, Laura and I were going to Penang, we were EARLY at Pudu, and we wore the same shirt (which coincidentally looked 90% similar to the freaking Konsortium bus people). So, they kept coming to talk to us, asking us about our shirts. Geez. Okay. So we were blessed that on both trips to and fro, which is four freaking bus rides in Konsortium, we were safe. Oh and in one, the bus was leaking. Remember? You know what's the best part of the bus ride? When they stop at Petronas, and we get our chocolate waffles. Yeah. We're just that hungry on all the bus trips. :) It just happens all the time.


What was I saying again? Bus drivers drive too slow. Then again, I don't think it's their fault. The buses are nearly broken down, most of the time. Oh wait. It's three trips, to and fro. The third was going to Langkawi. haha.

Remember taking the bus from Brisbane to Sydney? They stopped the bus at this stop and we quickly put on our seat belts, thinking they were gonna check us? But actually, they were checking the condition of the tires and the bus. Yeah. We were pretty surprised. Come on lah. One whole bus of Malaysians. In Malaysia, they don't really care if our bus does the mega flip over. haha. Oh and yes, the bus driver in Aussie was nice enough to not drop us off at Aquinas just like that, and freeze in the winter not-so-wonderland. Remember how the guys went out to check the weather, when Bryan Westerhout walked out of the bus and decided he needed a jacket, all of us silently went "oh shit". Don't deny it. haha. He damn kulit tebal, langsung tak sejuk and he needed a jacket. Lol.

Wow. I've got so much nonsense to blab about. Okay la. Times up. Gonna go "study" now, while I dream of what sitting in Starbucks right now, feels like. Bye! :)

` Apple the Oprah for music?

so leng (pretty) right?

I like.

I saw it on Apple.com

I went to the store at the Curve to ask if they had it.

"Next Monday", they said.

"Mom, check this out!"
*points at website picture*

I've never really wanted an ipod that badly.
In fact, i've never wanted an ipod/mp3 player or whatsoever, ever.
Look at the picture man.
Damn freaking pretty, right?


see?

It was so pretty.
It was...
It had to be mine.

Sigh.
Like the saying
better forget it cos you'll never have it, right?
boohoo.


up until...
a box of wine (or so I thought) from Godpa.
obviously for me.




*cheng cheng cheng*
*walaa* two to choose from.
Since I wanted the chromatic coloured ones so bad, I grabbed the tall one. :)


sucha pretty sight, ain't it?



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iLove
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I will blog properly when I find the mood. :)