` lost - was it edward ?

have you had a day where you feel so convicted about everything? where you believe that "yes, what i believe in is what i believe is true. "where you have had various people with different backgrounds supporting your one motion? and have one person, just ONE person confuse you? Confuse you to the point that your (what seemed like) years of knowledge seems so shallow, unreal, insufficient and idiotic? Where you feel like a complete and full-time dumb-ass and you get as confused as I am? Where you start talking about nonsensical things like this? yeah. Why didn't you question me just a day earlier? One day. One day and so much has changed! I can't sing like I used to anymore. I officially suck at singing (and prolly dancing) hehs. Thank you everyone for talking to me and knocking senses into my donkey head, and helping me realise that no knowledge will ever be enough. And yes, you cannot keep giving when you don't receive. Giving freely doesn’t guarantee you infillings. Infillings come when you look for them. Knock and the door will open, seek and you will find, ask and you will be given. omfgdns, nfw, but i think i’m @%^)_)(*&^%$#!@#$%*(UI#$RNB !@#$%^&*UYT

` love me love u

i am happy. grams made yummy curry laksa. =)

ah my legs are bruised again. damm ballet-ing!

Laura's got prom tonight. this is freaking random. but yeah. she got a nice dress. =)

I helped Anne with her Listerine CoolMint ad presentation last nite. haha. so FUN.
will update with the pic of that ad soon. it's darn funny.

gonna "shop" for our clothes this Friday. *prays* Pls let there be clothes to buy.

You're the light of my life.

Love my baybehsssss!

Yours truly,
LaiMichelle.

` 20th November 2007

Today i am very happy.
0330, 20.11.2007.

i love everyone today.

BTW, Happy Birthday Livvy darling! She was the cutest this morning when i wished her. Apparently she thinks they're gona make the SPM 2007 add maths easier cos it's her birthday today. hahaha. Smelly. Miss you lah. Must have sleepover again when Jo comes back and before you leave.

I love you, specifically.

` shaking hands with depression

this is Michelle's work of copy-paste from random blogs i've read..

"symptoms of depression:
1. lose interest in everything you loved to do and used to make you happy.
2. short temper and always firing at people around you...
3. always lazy and easily tired out
4. paranoid about other people and low self esteem
5. easily worried and stressed

so yeah.. depression might seem like such a big word.. but sometimes the most minor things might cause it... it might not be a big depression like suicidal or something.. but sometimes you can just suffer... so dont fall into it's traps and try to stay calmthe magazine said.... *i quote* lol.... that it's alright to take a breather once in awhile... try to calm yourself down.. think about why you are getting angry or frustrated or sad about... and think if it's reasonable... or you can always turn to someone close to you for comfort.."

"STEPS ON HOW TO OVERCOME DEPRESSION WITH UR FRIENDS :

1. Call up your Closest friends (preferably the same sex) * if u don't happen to have any friends to start of with then maybe u oughta get urself a how-to-attempt-suicide manual book.

2. Gather at a random place to do random activities together without supervision of adults

Suggested activies:
- calling Mc'ds/pizza and watch a feel good movie at 11 pm at night.
- Going for a jog together at late hours just to feel slightly more refreshed and have long chats..
- Go for random outings late at night and just slow cruise while you breathe in the polluted city air
- Doing works/assignments together and drink almost poisonous coffee's together for no good reason
- Plan a random holiday trip with ur friends
- Buy random get-well-soon gifts for ur friends that are sick such as flowers and cards *cos it feels good when u make others feel great =)
- Call BFs/GFs to tag along in the group and have double/triple/quadruple dates! :p
- Take a break from crazy assignments+ work+ exam stress to go Shopping together with ur friends!!
- Go for a random picnic at a park with a radio and half cooked foods frm ur friends XD *do this only under supervision of a sane person which in this case is none XD
- Bake a cake ( remember to insert paramedics emergency number within thecake incase it is needed)
- If ALL OF THE ABOVE should fail.... Just give random phonecalls in the WEE hourS of the morning to have a LOng Chat (only do this when u know ur free the next day XD)

u know if ur BEyond depressed when you.....
- start thinking of getting married
- lose interest in shopping or anything you used to like.
- start singing nonsensically
- start doing the Lala thing. poseeee
- start thinking about how the world SHOULd end
- Start believing u have the power to overcome the hunger pangs
- Start believing u were left behind by God and that the Rapture has taken place in an empty house.....
- Start believing that ur friends don't really care about you
- Start believing that maybe ur life SHOULD revolve around ur studies + workload only
- When u've finally made everyone around u distant frm u..."

"you know, suicide seems to make alot of sense when ur lonely, suicide is freaking real okay. depression is freaking effing real. BUT then suddenly God sends you these angels, a.k.a random ppl around u who suddenly say senseless things but somehow make ur day seem more worthwhile or sth and of course all of you who suddenly call out of the blues or just sends you a "hi, hope you're doing fine" message. These people are the angels in disguise.

Here's something to look forward to in life.

when we ALL (close friends only!) turn 21, we'll go on a road trip with 21 people, go play 21, have 21 shots, have a 21 course meal, spend RM210/2100 (depends on our financial state then!) , buy 21 things on the 21st of wtv month it is and stay up for 21 hours that day. WHO CARES. then we can hire 21 stripdancers to watch! haha"

well people, that's all for now. It's funny how you stumble upon blog posts by different people, about the same thing. =) ahaha.

` M!

hello donkey world
i'm very happy now.
i have amazing people around me.
life's too short to stay upset or even be upset.
i never knew this many people actually read my blog.
thanks for the well wishes, but i'm fine, really.
i love you all.

` my lil siceret

Sorry I was so upset yesterday for no apparent reason. I woke up this morning feeling sober and having slept the dread away. I also realised that i had the most amazing friends in the world. I have THE friends. Lol. Seriously, you all are the bomb la. I try to go to sleep so i can sleep away the agonizing dread i have for no apparent reason, and my favourite of all friends call from all ends,

"you wanna go watch movie??"
"you wanna go out??"
"you sure you okay?"
"you wanna do anything, ANYTHING AT ALL?"

the classic one was this call at 2.33am from Laura (that I didn't even realise until this morning). haha. I love all of you. I have THE friends. Sorry to all the donkeys in the world who don't have friends like mine. I'm happy for all the other donkeys who have amazing friends like mine. Be grateful that you're freaking freaking blessed okay! no joke. Calling up the whole day to check up on me, make sure i'm fine. You guys make any day seem brighter. haha. okay. Today i'm unusually jumpy hyper and happy. I think it's cos i know you've got my back and i've got yours. Now for my special dedikasi, Anne, you will from now know exactly what's on my mind right! ahaha. *high5's* Laura, you're the amazing-est friend larh. Yes, i know you're very "speshal" (quoting you *Rolling eyes*). Your call last night was so out of the blue and funny. Sorry i was so sleepy though *here's where i do the 'fei mao' laugh and here's where you gimme the WTH IS WRONG WITH YOU look.* haha. Raf, thanks for trying la k. You're like the most innocent of the lot la. Always so scared to step on my tail. Thanks for just being there. Stephen, i know i'm the cutest. Obviously cuter than you! *"sticks out tongue*. Oh and thanks for the blade blade blade! =) =)Ming, thanks for messaging out of no where cos on a random note, it made the day seem alot brighter. Thanks to all the random blog posts i read yesterday too, i feel alot better. Those i remember particularly, Mooting, once upon a time i fell in love, of second childhoods and woodblocks, wedding photos! etc etc. anyways, on a more serious note, my condolence to you and your family D. Sorry about your loss. Let me know if there's anything you need.

` her breasts are made of gold

yestheyare.
Bloggingisdangerousandfcukingmisleading.
Thingsaren'talwayswhatyouthinktheyare.think?yes.thinkagain.
Period.iteffinghappenedonmybirthdaywhenonlymyclosefriendswerepresent.wth.
Welcometorealitywhereevenyoucanbewrong.
Don'tjudgemecoyou'renotme.

` last few days

Pleasures at Murnis SS2.

Food fest put to the test

Congrats Blackie! hugggssss.

the cutest in town! =)

*this' what happens during practice*

Eli's trying to act innocent

The blocks required to hold up Eli's ego!

Phantom of the Opera mix

Vivaldi's Concerto in A minor

Palladio

` smile like there's no tmr

Happy Birthday Mommy!

` series of events