The games you play, you would always win

So today I decided to read some news from home, and found this to be a step forward into more positivity. 

Picture from here

So I know her album's been out for some time, but I just got mine this morning and ASDSFGHJS I like. :) Also, listening to old classics that I used to love. Ah. Memories.

Last night, housemate and I were in our own rooms on skype, playing and singing songs over skype. Can I say skype is love (only with fast and stable internet connection). And this other housemate came knocking on my door. "hi I can hear your convos by just standing in the corridor. SERIOUSLY. You two are acting as if your exams are over!!" *does victory dance* Haven't we all. T,T

competing who's got cuter more rings! I won hands down. Imba. Lol.

"It's fuschiaaaa! LOOKKKK!"

Love from home with ft. One way ticket to the loved ones. xx

Haha. esp now that the boyf has got ft to layan me too! xx

Would you be wonderful if it wasn't for the weather?

Validation - Smile; you are AWESOME

Courtesy to Brandon who introduced this to se7en of us on our private blog. :D

And also cos they called me at 2am in the morning to say "I miss you, let's go shopping".

Lol.

xx

Masque

Just because.

What did you do today?

I bought new books, albeit atypical from what I would usually buy, if I buy any books besides text books, that is. THREE some more. I hope I finish reading them, otherwise it would be a total waste of $.$. haha. And while reading a seemingly dry book, I realized I wanted to buy another book! Ah I hope I make this holiday absolutely productive! xx OOH AND NEW NAIL POLISH :D

Today was literally a "poor Michelle" day - no purse, i.e. no $$, which also meant no card, which ultimately meant no $$. MLS.

Good day nonetheless, apart from the gloomy doomy weather. =_=v

Reading time before my lonnngggg night begins!

In the meantime,

‘Six in the City’ is a musical tribute to friendship and the production promises something you and I can easily relate to and it will warm our (jaded) hearts with its beautiful, inspiring tale of friendship. The plot revolves around the lives of six good friends who have long been out of touch – until a mysterious letter reunites them. As the story unfolds, these six friends reminisce the past through a series of songs all done in show choir style under the musical direction of Penny Low.
Date: Aug 7, 2010 (Saturday)

Time: 7pm

Address: Sunway Resort Hotel

Entry Fees: RM200, RM300 or RM500 per person (inclusive of dinner).

It's for a good cause, so support Befrienders okay!

*mentally prepares self to decorate cupcakes

Crazy Ever After

OH YA. Video embedding has been disabled (stupid max pls), so click the "watch on YouTube" after you click play. Love!

“In the winter, that seat is close enough to the radiator to remain warm and yet not so close as to cause perspiration. In the summer it is directly in the path of a cross breeze created by opening windows there, and there. It faces the television at an angle that is neither direct, thus discouraging conversation, but not so far wide as to create a parallax distortion. I could go on, but... I think I've made my point.”

Love for BBT is immense. :D

KS is my best BBT friend. haha.

BAZINGA.

AFI - just let it burn out I will

He said, "Who truly belongs here?"
Not I she said, I'll lie here to with you
I know the sorrow is sacred
And I'll never break you
I'll softly save you

Fragments of joy torn apart
A freshly drained heart that beats
Disguise themselves through him
He'll say that it's nothing new
And swear this is true,
for you, I'll swallow the ocean

I'll swallow the ocean

Gleek

Gotta be my favourite (if not only) part of Glee. I was so entertained throughout the whole episode. It's been over a month and that's about the only thing I look back at and laugh. =_=

` bay I love the music I stole from your USB

See the wonders of Picasa 3 <- click the link to download it if you want. It makes me wanna blog more pictures, so no more talking until I get bored or run out of pictures (not gonna happen), although i'm pretty sure this entire blogging spur will come to an end soon.

Last night, I was cleaning some mess in my room, and I came across the guidelines for next semesters important dates etc. I read through the guidelines, it said Jan 11, so naturally I started freaking out. Why? Because initially I had this perception (or more like assumption) that class was starting after Jan 20th. Seriously, nine days less is a lot less. In nine days I can sleep 12hrs x 9days = 108 hrs. I get that much sleep, which is very rare! Now no more. WHAT?

*breaks away and checks Sept-Dec 09 timetable before I begin cursing the Uni admin*

*smacks forehead, bang head against wall*

It said Jan 11. I saw 20 and assumed it was Jan 20 - I thought my holidays were until Jan 20 (not much but bearable). It just said Dec 20 - Jan 11. Great. Now imma just dig a hole and swallow this misery; then again, i'm excited about school. Oh well. :) I'm pretty messed up. Luckily I checked first. =_='

From many weeks ago,

The kid I was left with on Christmas Eve.

Of joy rides, big-ass cars, "Elmo", and Bread Story. What a day.

Also, there's been a lot of ROE to keep me company.

` nothing left to salvage, no one left to blame

One last assignment and this will mark the opening of the flood gates to my finals.

Actually, I think this' gonna be the toughest one. =_=

I really should buck up! Procrastination - deadliest sin, can?

Where did the time go?

I hope I have Christmas and alone time to look forward to, this year.

It's a Saturday and I had to go to school at 9.30 a.m. for Research Colloquium. =_=

Things they make compulsory for us. urgh. Interesting, nonetheless.

Hello boyf, you read me before you go to sleep, so goodnight! 我爱你! <3


I am feeling very jolly. I think it's the medication. Makes me feel very who0o0ozy.

Yeah. With all that o0o0o0o0o.

AND OMG WHAT IS WITH GG. It's getting really stupid. Everyone besides Chuck is very mou liu, which is making the show very ma ma tei. =_=

Among the broken mirrors, I don't look the same.
You're the diamond on my landmine.

-BillyTalent

` lets paint the town, shut it down

Yes, lets. Lets.

A Classic. Remember telling your parents you had to go for a seminar, when in fact, you brought a

single red rose and said "you have a tummy".

Words cannot describe what i'm feeling right now.

Hustle bustle, and so much muscle.
Estuary is blessed, but scary.
Sweet precision and soft collisions.

because

One day, live. Both of them! I'll let you know. Till then.

` lateral geniculate WHAT?

I remember watching this Korean Drama quite some time ago. Actually I didn't just remember it off the cuff. You know, 8tv has this thing where they repeat the series in the afternoons, so yeah, ter-watched it this afternoon and half an episode later, I'm all wooshy and mooshy. Damn these Koreans and their dramas. See, the trick is to not start watching so you don't get hooked.

I remember the adrenaline of having to catch the series every night and I remember them being very nice, albeit very vaguely. Feels like a really old show. Watched this long before I began watching Grey's Anatomy. Mm. Now that i'll leave for another day; or maybe never. :)

Yay I have like Biopsychology tomorrow and i'm googling Lee Beom-Soo and oogling.

I know he's not your typical (insert your hot celeb here) but totally yeng okay! Meh.

uh,

yeah.

Biopsychology now.

Oh and don't google him pls.

Cos I think I picked his best pics.

Apparently he has a very bad sense for hairstyle.

=_=

I doubt anyone besides me finds him (even mildly) attractive.

But I promise if you watch the show and see his asshole character damn yeng ...

*cheng cheng cheng!

Ok. Maybe it'll still be just me.

v=_="

` overboard

Photo Credits: Thiru

Photo Credits: allgraphicdesign

Photo Credits: Joe's Adblog

Thank you.
Screw you.

Love you.
Hate you.

You know the bloc's too? :)

` leave the ring on your finger

personal attacks: cheap shot.

yeahp. I learnt that today, fo sure.

Finally watched the season finale for GG.



"Like, can you say it twice?"
OHMAIGOSH. C and B, finally hitting it off properly! About time! :)


Time to pack my bags and buy shampoo.


On the other hand,


boring =_=. I kinda expected alot more, considering the cast?!

*******

It is very true (for me especially) when it comes to the impression of turning (insert any age here), you never really just turn that age. Say I turned nineteen, right? I wouldn't feel nineteen instantaneously. Do you wake up on the day of your birthday feeling exactly one year older from before? Because I don't. I don't wake up feeling more mature, more intelligent, more self-sufficient or independent. Come on. Who am I kidding?

I remember very clearly my sixth birthday - there was a clown and professionals who painted butterflies on my face and different stuff on my friends faces. I wanted to be sixteen, not just for the frivolity of it all, but because the clown made me lay eggs (ass of a magic trick) in front of my friends. I wanted to be sixteen, so that I would stand up to that huge clown in front of me and step on his damned toes, without being afraid. Yeah I was mean like that. I hated the clown alot for making me "lay eggs" in front of a crowd. Sure, the kids prolly didn't understand what was going on, and prolly thought it was cool and all, but I guess it was me wanting to grow up faster that got me all worked up at the clown. I wore a pink dress, and I had a pink butterfly on my whole face btw. I remember distinctly, two people. Jonathan (who's nearly a full-fledged doctor now! - wow) and Emily (I don't remember how I knew her or where she is now, or what happened to her =_= *shy). I wonder where she is, I wanna go back to being six, so I could ask her to stay and be my friend till today.

Then, there was a time when i was nine, and I hated school so much, because of the workload and all that forcing of Mandarin speaking - I got my kakak to do my tuition homework for me, and (duh) my teacher found out, and she kinda rotan me, and I wanted to be six all over again, because I wanted to cry so badly, but I wouldn't cos I was at the tuition teacher's house. I didn't wanna "embarrass" myself any more than I already had. Technically, irrelevant, because in my days, EVERYONE got a taste of the rotan on a regular basis. Plus, Chinese school kids have it harder - if they tell their parents the teacher caned them, they'd prolly get another round at home. Oh yeah. Our parents (nearly 50 students in a class) would give teachers canes (at least two from each of us) for freaking Teacher's Day (FTW), and there'd be at least 100 canes in the cupboard - couldn't have possibly hid or disposed that many - it would've been too obvious. Those days, I wanted to be thirteen so I could get into high school - Mandarin-free. Not so excited about that now.

Throughout my high school years, when exams were coming, I wanted to be twenty five so I would be able to work, and not study. Then when the parents decided to transfer me to a new school on the basis of more appropriate environment and conditions, I wanted to be six all over again, where I didn't have to worry about making friends, or caring even, if I have friends. Lol. Between being fourteen and seventeen, I bailed classes - less, with each passing year of course, but the moments I bailed classes and escaped punishment-free, I felt older, and superior. I felt nineteen. Just like a big girl. When I was fifteen, I never really went out with my friends, and that never posed as a problem, cos I had enough fun at home. When I was sixteen and had the sudden surge to go out, I think my parents freaked, and gave me pretty tight curfews. Those moments, I wanted to be twenty one, so that I could make my own decisions.

When I turned seventeen, my parents let me go out more, come back later - I wanted to be fourteen all over, so that they'd stop me from going out, and call me more often - just for the sake of security. Now, being nineteen, there are so many things I have no control over, and I want to cry - I want to be three, so that I can cry, and no one will judge me. In fact, people would mollycoddle me. When I falter or procrastinate and leave my work to the very last moment and I have to face the consequences, I get really scared, and I wish I were nine, so that school would be just about homework, not completing it, and bearing with the caning. That's all. Today, when I see my people around me sad, and I feel hopelessly helpless, I feel fourteen, and naive.

Therefore, I believe that no matter how old or young you are, you always want something more (or less). I am nineteen, and when i'm scared, I feel the fear I felt when I was six when I got lost in the shopping mall. I am nineteen, when i'm stressed out, I wanna be twenty three and a graduate - that way I wouldn't have to study so hard now. I am nineteen and when I turn twenty, I'll still feel nineteen, eighteen, all the way to three years young, and nothing is going to change. Tomorrow afternoon, I fly off with three friends for an ER, and I know that I am happy being me, because I am blessed - whether I am ten, eleven, sixteen, eighteen or twenty one. Oh and making the decision to come back before class, I felt like I was mature - twenty eight would be the number I would have labeled my age-of-the-moment. Waking up at 5.30am, going for Ascension mass at 6.30am, and seeing the blacks, Ivs and L, I felt like we were all twenty five - mature and deciding on what our priorities were - even if we were exhausted from the previous day - we went there by choice - on our own.

So really, being nineteen, I am one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen, fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and nineteen years old - until I turn twenty, plus all my being of older ages. Yeah.

I never thought i'd say this,
but today, just today,
I can't wait for the rest of my life.

` under the sea

I like, I like, I like!

Okay. I know i'm like very backdated with 'em movies. Oh well. I suddenly found time (which I have a feeling I'm gonna lose very soon. hah). I went to watch this with the fats, who picked me up from prayer meet, where I was baby/child-sitting SEVEN kids owhkay *sweat blood*. Thank God my sister is growing, and she listens, so does the Heng 1 & 3. The rest were like ZOMGDNS FTW. Fine, i'll let J be the baby he is, only cos he's a baby. =_=

I can't believe we spent the day in class trying to disperse ourselves evenly, working so hard on that, then failing miserably right after the movie. haha. We suck, man. =_= And why must it be a compulsory event that I had to miss? And I wanna play dress up too, I DO! *sulks. hah. Well oh well. :( And blardy goodness, now I have to write a letter to excuse myself from playing dress up. How exciting. =_= And lunch was too much, while I attempted to cut back on the degree of embarassment I was causing myself.

Ps. "I have two balls", "Me too!", "Is this lift the appropriate place to say these things?"
Bell, seriously? haha.

Ah yes, I could get used to the airplane. I can feel the leaving-my-heart-behind feeling already. Three cheers for the champion who created the airplane. Ah. :) If the RATS give me that adrenaline, I'm all in it. :) I hope it'll happen! Oh and I finally found a bunch of people who enjoy "extreme sports". Ohwellokay there's no class tomorrow and I can't believe i'm going back without being forced.

So many questions
I Need an answer
Two years later
he's still on my mind.

Thank you for remembering, dear.
As for prayers, hah. It's about time.
The week will be over soon,
And when it's over, I'll be right here, as always.
Deal's on. *bear hug*

Good day, today.

` trouble is a friend

Couple of nights ago, Angels and Demons :) Awesome stuff.

"Religion is flawed, but only because man is flawed."
- Angels and Demons

Truer than true.

Besides that, I spent one of the mornings with the Godfather and his stories. Always a good laugh there, and so many insights. Then there was going to Pyramid *blech* and Charles & Keith-ing, which was a bore, not knowing where the X-Trail was parked, then walking aimlessly (after driving aimlessly) in the car park, looking for the City. hah. There was nothing entertaining. Period.

Today was all about positivity *bah. Today was a blind-as-a-bat day FTW. I forgot my glasses. I would think that the class (with all that break) can't get any more exciting. Coffee makes any day brighter, without making any effort yay yay. The weather was the bomb, and we walked back from KPD to the main block. Yeahp :) Then there was the McD moments and the "Around me, you're going to have to eat. Understand?" "Yes boss :)" haha. You see, i'm starting to enjoy myself. I can't wait.

Oh and people, never ever get yourself in a situation where you have to watch I love you, man. Stupidest show, yet. =_= double FTW moment. That kinda screwed my day up abit, but it's alright. I'm looking forward *shivers. This positivity is killing me. Think it'll last till I go to bed tonight.


I'd like to think that maybe, just maybe, it is time for me to face it, address it, and clean the cut. I don't want to be the stupid monkey. I just need time, and some advice from a fictional 16 year old :) Ah. Good day, and that's how I'd like to remember it. Oh and I used the MPH voucher that Nan so kindly shared with me :) . I spent like an hour in MPH deciding what I was gonna get, and I promise, Ian nearly lost his mind every time I saw or thought of something new. Heh.

Things change,
pain goes away,
and happiness exists on the other side.

Although pain comes back,
so does happiness.
Just like the waves in the ocean,
coming and going,
coming and going,
ever so gently.

-Adapted from Chicken Soup for the Soul.

And seriously, WHAT is with GG, OTH and Greys? Geezers! Don't read the following paragraph (which you need to highlight to see) unless you wanna hear my spoiler-ish grumpiness of how it's all got me waiting until next weekend (shucks I won't get it then, either, cos well, i'll be off, Again). hah. Can't wait. *claps hand. Oh btw, my charger is fried. hmph.

In GG, C lets B go because he "loves her" and wants her to have the "perfect night", and doesn't even defend himself when B accuses him of fixing the Prom Queen vote and sabotaging her chances, for Nelly Yuki. SERIOUSLY? And why does Peyton have to have a miscarriage so close to the end? I'm telling you, if she dies right, that's it. Freakazoids. Then again right, she and Lucas are leaving OTH right? OTH will never be the same without them. Oh well. I'll just have to look for other series (with the help of the Ellie, of course). As for Greys, Izzy's hallucinating cos of the freaking tumor? WHAT IS HAPPENING? Why is everything so drama one? :( So the finale is out. I'll get my hands on it. Just you wait. *Emo. =_=

I miss you more than I should,
Than I thought I could.
Can't get my mind off of you.
And I hate the phone,
But I wish you'd call.

` miracles happen

I'm really no big fan of reviewing movies, telling people what's nice or not to watch, or anything at all. But seriously you guys, watch this movie! haha. It's a really good movie on relationships and marriage. Then again, i'm really not up and hopping with all the current movies. Maybe everyone (but me) has already watched it. But come on you guys! I have no time for movies. No interest, some times. But this this this movie, is really nice. I liked the 'make a list' thingamajig. It's very real that we take a lot of things for granted, just because things, or people are constantly readily available, all at our disposal. In today's society, we're pressured by keeping up with the speed of things, we forget to keep our lives in reality check. We're very often (at least I am, don't know about everyone else) caught up with school work, this work, just hanging out, and chasing after due dates that we forget that friendships and relationships need the occasional nourishing, refreshing and nudging. Hey I haven't neglected any one of you, right? haha. Just a thought. Alright, brace yourself for some mind blowing, insensate ramblings. You might just want to stop right here. :) And if you were wondering, yes, I'm on a blogroll. Hence, the consistent (or so I think) updates.

Anyway, for those of you who have been bewildered and disturbed with the fact that I hadn't watched Transformers, I finally did! Now, now, calm down. No big hooha! Well, it was about time, and I chose the most uncanny time to watch it. The day I woke up early to study for my finals. Yes, I woke up at 9am, to watch Transformers (just like I spent an hour looking painstakingly for the M&S heels on their catalogues, just before another exam. haha.). Distractions (!) , people! What am I saying? I need to get a grip on my life. haha. Yes. Nevertheless, I admit it was a real good movie. What was I thinking when I said there was no need to watch it? So I can finally return all your DVDs :) haha.


Well, remember I said I got a new dog? Jack Russell. I said I was gonna upload a picture of the dude right? Here it is. I like the dog, cos as I said, it walks funny and it makes me happy. Seeing it gives me a good start to my day and somehow or rather, I feel so much better after I see it. Even if i've had one helluva day, seeing Prince (that's his name, btw) makes all the anxiety go away. What say you? :)

Babe! Remember this clown? haha. I just found the picture.
(which I unintentionally made sad, hence the face)

A friend asked me, "why do you paint your nails? Why do girls paint their nails?" Well girls, I don't know about you, but it is very therapeutic for me. I can be stressed, deranged, psychopathic and cranky, but let me sit down and paint my nails, and my whole world just falls right back into place. (Shows just how much more deranged I am, huh?) haha. For instance, when I'm stressed out right before my exams, I paint my nails. When i'm upset, I paint my nails. Oh and a friend once told me, the colour we choose to paint our nails reflect very much on our emotions and feelings. I couldn't have put it better. Take the picture above, for example. That was Dark purple, right before exam, and stress was the mood. Go figure. As for guys who paint their nails? Well, there are many sides to that story la yeah? haha.




Btw, for those who are looking on buying an iPod, there's this new official Apple Malaysia Online Store. It's a whole lot easier to relate, in terms of pricing, cos it's all in Ringgit (finally). They have this awesome engraving and wrapping service, plus shipping thing going on, which is sucha steal (i think la). Shipping is free if you purchase over RM250. Oh come on, you don't really expect to get anything there for very cheap prices, do you? Anyway, other than that engraving thing, I think i'd stick to purchasing Apple things from stores, just cos I prefer it that way.


Yeah I know, I know. There isn't any connection between all the paragraphs. Just random thoughts I decided to put down. That's all :)


So, I finished all the major obstacles to my holidays papers today. It's a good thing, right? :) yums. Freedom hasn't tasted this awesome, in a long time. I promise i'll try to stop procrastinating next year. One month to go and it'll be a new year. How did you spend your new year 2008? How are you gonna usher in the challenges, prosperity and love 2009 holds?


Anyway, I haven't been like all poser for some time now. So I decided to mess around with my webcam today, and took like 2134567786543 pictures. :) haha. Random? I know. But i'm in such a good mood, potentially nothing can change it. Not yet, at least. Alright. byeee :)






p/s: Sorry no Chinese words today. haha. And congrats if you got this far.

` bruises

I regret my last post already. haha. What the heck was I thinking? Well, fact is, you don't blog when you're P.O.'d. It's wrong it ten thousand ways. PDA is pathetic. Public display of anger. Not public display of affection. o.0 I'm lame in so many ways, you lose count.

Alright. So much has happened in the last few days, i'm starting to forget what i've done. I've slept at 5am and woke up at around 8am for approximately half of the last eight days or so. Pathetic much. My life is getting more and more pathetic by the day (or so I thought). I'm trying to avoid group assignments as much as possible now. haha.


Mm... Josh, Ellie, the two mummies and I went shopping yesterday (after only about 20 wrong turns? yeah. I'm exaggerating alright). Yummy. So much choice, you get this mega duper headache trying to decide. From show dresses, to dance costumes, to normal cocktail dresses, to... Everything (well nearly) I could've imagined. And at that price? Sigh. How to choose? mm :) Yay. One more round next week with the two extra ppl we need. One more mummie and the little girl who fits right into everything there. *cough cough*


Anyway, as you can see, (most of you know) after much coaxing, I finally went to watch 'Crazy Little Thing Called Love' yesterday and it was really cute. I was pretty impressed. I caught their second last show. So if you guys wanna watch em, click here to find out more. Bring your family along. It's ... real ... *drama wama*


Oh oh 0h. I just got this call from my mom. The sister (who's in Kelantan now btw, for the Wira Nationals), called to inform that their team beat Kedah. haha. DJ ppl kiasu. Lets pray that they get a shot at this Wira title? :) Ladidaaa. Whatever the outcome, they've already made it this far thanks to *cough cough* :) Congrats!

When the night has been too lonely
and the road has been too long
and you think that love is only
for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snows
lies the seed, that with the sun's love
in the spring, becomes the rose.

Catch them, ya?
Nah Ming. So big the poster. CAN YOU SEE IT?

bye folks.

*Monday Blues*